The Depth of a Soul..

There is a fundamental reason why things are what they are, Why life will continually suck, Or why life may Be awesome. There's no such thing as: "it's just supposed to be that way," "Or there's nothing you can do." It's easy to get carried away with the uncontrollable's  compared to the controllable's, yet at the end of the day, if you have no idea why things are the way they are, then it's time to gain some perspective. I've been carried away with the excuses, and the should haves and the what if's. Even when I've done all I could do, I'd still fail at the overall goal. Why is that? I've become bitter, and resentful Repressed and Angry. I've come up with reason after reason of why things happened the way it did. But completely over look the core of it all. I've become okay with people feeling sorry for me, rather than stepping forward and fight. So what is it? why has things been this

From the beginning, I've always loved that sparkle. The sparkle your eyes have, the twinkle they make. The genuine care. I see a better world there. Somewhere I want to be. A place, I've always wanted. The moment I saw you, walking from your car to Noodles and Co. I was immediately drawn to you. We could talk for hours, and all I wanted was more. Somehow, I grabbed you. Somehow, I captured your interest. Truly, I don't see what you see in me. The view from up here, Is all I've ever wanted. I see a better world when your beside me. It's the place I want to be. The place Ive always wanted. From up here, I can truly find the peace, that peace I've always sought after. Even when things are tough, the fantasy is still there. The uniqueness of our relationship, well it's something I've never had before. Thank you. Thank you for opening my eyes. Helping me see clearer. There isn't a thing I won't do for you. Y

I want you to know: There was a time,  A time when when words I wrote, made up for feelings I lacked. There was a time when, convenience was the answer, the easy answer. I followed the easier road, because that honestly was the road  I thought I had to choose. There was a time when, I was stuck.  Stuck in the mundane practices I had thought my world to be. I hadn’t a clue… Until I met you.  Honey, I’ve never stopped writing. With you I’ve done something I’ve never done before.. 5/4  I am blessed. You are my Prince without a doubt. You are my rock. 😊 You are my constant that I love. You truly are my everything I have been looking for. You are my man. You are my handsome man. 😉 You are the best thing I could have ever asked for. I truly thank the Lord everyday for sending you to me. You will make me want to always better myself. I will do anything to always support you and to make you happy. I love you so much Shaun Michael Arenas. A

Home. It's here. The kind you don't give up. A heart. The kind that makes you soar. A smile. Which will melt your heart. Time. Cant have enough of it. Trust. Is it to good to be true? I can't believe I've found her. The one. Many failures led to this, Happiness. I don't deserve how happy I feel. Surety. I do trust her, I just know. Complete. The kind that fills holes you didn't know you had. Peace. The kind where you smile yourself to sleep. The purest forms of love takes work. Yet, It's just easy. Are you willing to do what it takes? For me? I couldn't imagine it any other way. I love you. I thought I knew what those words meant. Yet they were hollow before you. I Can't stop loving you. I just feel so blessed. So privileged. So grateful. So confident. I never planned on this so soon. Yet here I am, here we are. I will do anything for you. That I do without a second thought. I know you. The type of per

Standing from afar. Watching, seeing. Not that you need me, but knowing I'm here. Rather I say it or not, It's irrelevant, As I will just do it. For I know it matters to you. You know that I'm never to far. I'll do it before you ask. Changing how I see things, to see how you'd like me to see. I see you as you walk, You're the first person I look for. The best part of my day. Not that you asked me to, but because I want to. Love isn't just a word I say. It's what I do, and try to do. I see how you're patient with me. You're never to far away. Always trying, always doing. I check you out, You're beautiful. I can't keep you off my mind. I'll hold your hand always, rather it's just to be able to touch you, or when you need me to lift you. It doesn't matter, I'll just do. I see you when you struggle, but I respect that you like to figure it out yourself. Many of the times I'll just

I've been one say, That blessings never cease, That God is always with you, as you let him be.. He has never left my side. His hand, ever present, As he arms have always  been open. Though life has been hard - He's never given up on me. My heart was split in half. My life dumped upside down My body stopped functioning when I needed it... Yet he's never failed me. Now I see. It's always been apart of his plan, He's just prepared me for the better. A home, to rest my weary head. A heart, as mine.. Blessings come.. Oh fount of every blessing. My heart is tuned, and is ever ready to sing thy praise. Hope by thy good pleasure, Safely to arrive at home. Oh thy light from thee, Let it continue to feel my soul. Let me continually stand, as a witness to thee. Of thy works to spread thy gospel. Help me to be, Who thou wilt want me to be. How grateful to thee, I will ever praise. Jesus Sought me when a stranger wondering from the fold

Hi, how are you? Yeah, Crazy huh? How two strangers can meet, then open up to one another. That person I see, The person I am getting to know, well... we could use this. To help each other, rebuild, and grow stronger. I'm vulnerable. That much is sure... My heart has been stripped bare to many times.. I don't know what to do at this point. I feel safer by myself, yet, how can I progress and become a better me, If I won't at least try. I won't give up, It's not in my nature. The person I see that person you are, can be worth it. I hope it is. I appreciate you. Your story, that history, It's made be stronger... Just hearing it. Thank-you, I'm glad I know you. You're right, you are pretty awesome.

Reflecting lights, of reflected images. Reflects the details shown, rather flawed or beauty. Images duplicated, are windows of the soul. A light captured created the window. The window entrapped upon the surface of a reflection. Why be angry at the reflection, when the details shown, were created by yourself. The reflection can't help it, nor can it control the light captured upon it's surface. Many seek to find, their reflection portrayed. People will spend ages perfecting their image. Yet, they've failed to improve, the light from within. Yet, it was captured in their reflection. A reflection show's, what can be helped. Work on it, Never hesitate - then do your best. When your reflection isn't what you want. Stay true to yourself, but be humble enough to change. It not a bad thing to change, Bad things aren't worth keeping around.

Awake,  Antsy, Anticipating. A new day, a new beginning.  Appreciating the past for what it is. Accepting the outcomes.  I am a better person now, than before.  More empathetic than I've ever been,  My sights are on the future.  Gearing up for possibilities.  I'm excited to cross that finish line,  to have new and better opportunities arise.  This is my time,  and I won't pass it up.  God as my witness,  I will not stop till I can't walk,  I won't give up till it's over,  And won't shut up till I've said my peace. I done compromising,  I know who I am, and I will fight for what I deserve.  Life isn't meant for mediocrity. But for endless opportunities,  and attained goals.  Someday I will have it all,  but for now, I am happy with what I have.  People have far less,  and sometimes less is more.  So for now,  This is my path,  and my focus.  Driven as I've ever been

The Light of the soul, Emanates through the eyes. Your heart, is at it's center. Wondrous beings, with golden hearts, and kept beauty. It's hard to know a person, so walled off, and defended against the willing. Yet it didn't take much effort, to see the beauty within, which compliments the beauty, from the outside. The Light, your Light, Illuminates you. Even though you protect yourself from love, I just want you to know... That you are seen... There are those that appreciate the person you are, even though there are few outside an immediate few, that actually know you. Someday, You'll see, and let yourself go. The walls will crumble down, and you'll let your golden heart free. The Light makes you shine, If only for a second, our light shone together. It was a marvel to be apart of. Pretty girl, with eyes so bright, You'll see for yourself, That truth is found, in the words you read. You make the world, just a li