The Depth of a Soul..

At the end of this night, the first thoughts are - I should be asleep. Yet I chose to write, a couple of thoughts that portray, a bit of how I feel tonight. For good or bad, richer or poorer. I'll be happy when I am able to see, things a little more clearer. Like I used to - when the choices made, made a little more sense. Back when there wasn't so much to bare. I guess it's all of the reminders that I have much more yet to wade through, and with those ever present and constant reality checks never let me forget, that life is hard and one hell of a hard experience. So now, Here I am. At home - surrounded by those I love - Family. It's been amazing. I don't remember Ga, being quite like this. Yet midst so many people, I feel alone. Not the lonely depressed kind of way. But the, "hey look at all the people with someone, I wish I had one of those," kinda way. It's funny how the mind works. Even mid-stream of so much awesomeness, the thoughts of what you&#

A simple story It seemed like a dream, That simple day, During that simple time. We created a memory. An exert of time, That only belongs to us. Rather the night, Or the day, Maybe time wasn't long enough, But as I see it,  it was the beginning of the rest of my life. You're the one I've sought my whole life. The one who completes things. Makes life make sense. The one I go to bed thinking about. The one I fall asleep to, And then dream of. I want something that can last. Something told about in stories, And Watched in movies. A story wrote, And edited by us. Not perfection, But imperfection, And flawed. I want weakness, Then growth. Nothing to much, Just no more wishing, But actuality.. Do you know? You take me away. Make me think that there is more to life than this. Can you understand? I want to take care of you for the rest of my life. I want to be vulnerable around you. I want you to be the person who sees through me. I want to share a life with you by my side. We can

Glad tidings of great joy To him we praise, To him We'll sing, A glad tidings, of great joy. Our savior, Lord - redeemer, Of mankind. Blessed be the name of Jesus, The Christ. He came to the world, To save us from sin, And to bless us with the way, The truth and the light. He showed us, That by him, And through him only, Can men make it back to the father, And his kingdom in heaven. Let us shout from the roof Tops, This is his time, And his glory. Oh praise him, My savior, And my redeemer. He redeemed me from sorrow, Saved me from my iniquities. To him I am in debated. To him, I'll give my heart. Glad tidings of great joy! Let us turn to him this Christmas season. Let the joy of peace and love, Fill our hearts. Hosanna! Blessed be his name.  

Can I ask you a question? Do you always give up? The breakable glass will eventually break, Glass served a purpose, to be see through-able. Clear to the next stage in life. It never lasted. The rock thrown - shatters. That is the reality. The fragility of the Reality I once knew, became a lost hope, As it became apparent, you were meant to break, like glass, clean and clear. Now the Clarity I find, is compared to walking on water. I fell in once or twice, like Peter of old. The Faith held - was lost. Building back up, piece by piece, shard by shard, cuts on top of cuts, but now?? I'm happy, relieved, and oh so relaxed. Vindicated is a good word. "Free from guilt" and in love with the now. Letting life blossom, and grow into this life - after the the breakable glass.. Broke.

Directions It's in front of us, The way, the direction.. We may know where to go, But not how to to make it.. The directions, The path may be vague. But the destination is clear. Knowing the beginning, From the end. Or the end from the beginning. Not knowing how to, But believing that you can. How to get there, will be shown to those - Who stay close to the way. Staying close to the doctrines, And close to the light. Being strong through the mists, Stand out in the grey. Don't lose yourself, Even if you lose your way. Stick with what you know at first, Then take a chance to grow. First make small chances - then have faith in your decisions. Grow and learn, Listen to your heart, For it won't let you down. Those of us who are aware - Know that those impressions, Aren't from you, They stem from on high. Small reminders, That throughout the trails of life, You're not alone. You came from a great place - From parents from an eternal state. And - They love you. The direct

Like a man on fire- my mind burns. There's little devils keeping me up, While my body screams sleep! I'm restless - to much to do. So little time. I'll learn to sleep. Eventually my body will give in. I think of tomorrow - Hope that some day I will get to rest. Grateful for the time I've had - For I've given it my all. Magic is happening. Wonders - to behold. Experiences - made only for me. Someday God will bless me, The same as so many has. For someday the day will come. But for now I'm here - Carving a future. My weary mind - Wanders and stirres. As a man - I will do. I will Prepare for them. As I've prepared for her. I'll live to fight. Fight to grow - Grow to become. For the person I am. Is dedicated to grow. To be better - and to grow. Someday she will come.. As someday I will know... Someday as I think - the world will stop. The world will be mine - for it is what I make it. Every day this weary mind prepares. And strives to make it. I will go. For

Older and wiser? I dare say I might be that person. Time has made it's mark. Such as timing changed my life. The wrong timing, Too much of this - Too little of that. The feelings were mutual. At the time, it just didn't make sense. Until I knew you, and you knew me. It became more. Until the right timing prevailed. We became the King and Queen of the era. So now here we are - Older and wiser. Grown up and beat up. Taken down a couple of notches. Yet standing taller than we ever have. Humbled and strong. Fully aware of who we are. Better off than ever. I know you - You know me. I get it - You get it. I haven't been happier. A bit of the past, To remember how far we've come...

Can you see yourself - a heavenly being? Can you see the roads left behind by him who sacrificed for us? Can you stand in holy places? Can you remember who you are at the moment of temptation? Can you imagine life after here? Can account to Him, at the end of the day, And tell Him - you did all you could to show him your faithfulness? Have you made restitution with this you've wronged? Have you imagined the potential you have? Can you see yourself getting there? We are his children, Father in heaven - he loves us. He asks us to be like him. Through all the temptations and imperfections we have, We are to overcome them, and be like our savior. Can you walk the road less traveled? Can you stand by him - through the trappings of evil? Can you keep your eye singled to his glory? Can you, at the end, imagine him... Standing in front of you, Can you look him in the eye? Would you be able to stand in his presence? Will he look at you with a proud eye of our advocate? Or would he be disapp

Sometimes you can't say it a loud, A lot of the times it's not allowed, Thoughts of a lonely heart - and a wandering mind. You're okay with, You're fine without. But in the end - You miss that feeling. Or you're just missin her. That girl - The type for you, Her - the right one. The one who helped you to forget, The past, And again, Made excited about the future. The feelings of elation, Oh how the world stopped for that moment. It spinned so fast. It felt so right. You thought it was done - The search. Then again, like before.. It was short lived - Yet you still long for it, That spark, That excitement. Is it for me? Can it last? Maybe, just maybe, You'll get your chance. You'll get the story. The story of you, And her. You'll give it all, And get it all and more, In return. No more guessing. No more searching No more crap. I'm ready for new scenery, Ready for something consistent, Ready for the right, Ready for the win. The time moves on, So will y

Experiences in life, Have their stories to tell. To many people run, Instead of face their fears. Or the inevitable fate. Picture a place where only you can go, and go there... It was hard, Laying on your death bed, Picturing a life without you're self in it. Your life clock ticking away, as you lay in bed. You're in to much pain to move. Your skin crawls, Like Knifes stabbing, Your eyes throb, Talking, gets stuck in your mouth. Your throat closes, Your lips are cracked. You taste blood, so much blood.. You want to cry but can't, You think of an ending, The ending you might be forced to take. Nobody knows, Just how it is. But one person, The person who's felt your pain, That person- you hold onto to. In your heart, So you hold onto that faith.. While Finding a place outside of it all... You close your eyes, and find - A paradise, only you can go. Yelling, Those hurtful words.. STOP!! You two loved each other once, Can't you remember this?? Why? What happened? I thou

Yeah I'm tired, pretty worn out. My body needs to sleep. Rest. But I can't.. Not yet, I have to finish, have to accomplish the goals set. The train follows the tracks, It rounds the mountain, climbs, and climbs. This is fun though, now is the time to work. Not rest at an early time. The path ahead isn't easy, the roads walked on, shouldn't be light. Work, that's the name of the game, get in the grit, fight with both fists. Life is to short, make the best, of what is given. Take the road less traveled, pay my time, give my dues, till the end is in sight. At the makers feet. Will I then rest my Head, and tell him, and give him my heart. Tell him - With all that thou hast given me, I did my best. Please let me into thy kingdom.

Not that I'm giving up,or even saying that I'm finished;I'm far from either.But honestly? I've worried to much,stressed to the point of exhaustion,given in to much. I'm at the point of conceding. You were right,I was wrong. I thought I wouldn't care, I figured I was better? Now it's said ,and now you know. But honestly? I'll do it again. what's on the inside,Is all real. I did what I did, so that at the end of the day, I stood for what I knew to be right.Even though I was wrong.Thanks, It takes a special type of person, to still stand beside me, even though you knew I was wrong. Moments of failure,Mistakes made. I'll admit to them all,and will continue to mess up. All I need is a person to stand beside me, even though I will make mistakes a plenty. You've done this. Although I can't promise, to be 100% perfect, I can promise to 100% of me aiming for perfection.So my pride has been taken,and those wrongs wont take anything. I'll correc

Oh the joys of simple memories, Carried away by the tales of the past. How I've loved the roads walked on, the freinds who've held my hand, and times spent, loud at home, to fast behind the wheel, window jumping, or secrets on the times that happened. The times we spent; Oh how they flew, I've loved them all. you were with me, weren't ya? you can share the same thoughts, because we've known each other, that long. And, we know each other that well. the laughing joys of meaningless humor, the times around the den, and the shin-digs, no-body even uses that word anymore. but what better way of describing how we were? no-body can say, they've been there, done that, unless they were us. Because, at the end of each night, you pushed me out of the window, and I snuck you through the door. rather spent during the earliest of the morning, or the latest of nights, we never slept, nor did we stop. It was us. The group, our group, or just you and I. The team who did it all.

"The bitten tongue, always has another word to say" The words I said, Tried to cover up the lie which was there. The innocence of a baby, Stripped away by the unforgiving, And the selfishness of it's parents. The innocence of true love, The one and only, Taken away by the hell, I lived in, and experienced, At the ends of your hands. -- Yet it's still my choice if I'll let it ruin me.. -- Although you tried to deny it, I knew the truth which was there, I just chose to hide it. The matter at hand is I tried to deny, The true reality of where you were. I created fiction, Out of reality. -- I can still believe again in the theory and the hope... -- Even a baby could see, I was the fool, Laughed at. You allowed it to happen, Out of selfishness, You never stopped me, You knew you couldn't be where I was, Yet you did, What you wanted to do, Just because you could do it. -- Not refuting my take of the faults, but you new better... -- I'm a little bitter at the tho

Carried away by the thought, Lost in the moment of excitement. Sometimes you just can't help it. But now it is to late, You've lost control now, You cant really change it. You came across as to easy? And a bit to needy. I don't like either, Neither does she. Life's to short to worry that much, Sure she was awesome in every way, But there are more to find, Take a chill pill, Take some cough syrup, Lose you're edge. There will come the time, When you learn to be a bit more chill. Be it, And be okay with the way things play out. What i want, is What you want - A person who can invest what you can, A person to stand by you? Look for a person who cares, A person who will be honest, And not play games. Drama never helped, Only pushes away. A person who stands out, Can laugh about anything, Can make a funny face out of no where, A Person who is mature, But childlike at the same time. I want someone who is better than me. Don't fret about losing control, Don't fret

Right now, I don't want to know your past, Just want to see the present. I'm sure you've been around the block a bit, But what matters to me is that you say, And are, who you've said you are. This is fun, Kinda want to admit, I like this place, And Like the view from here? Honestly, There's nothing you can say, That would differ me from this road, I'm walking. Honestly, I kinda like you, It's not that I don't want to know, The past you've walked, More or less, Let's just get to know each other. Sure, You are a complex, And deep individual, But for now, Let's keep talkin, Just me and you. I want to get to know you. Wanna see the person, I am looking at. I want to admit, You're kinda pretty much gorgeous, Good start, But honestly? There are many of gorgeous women. What matters is the person you are, The person you can become, And if you're the person I could love, It All depends on if I can see and get to know you. Like I said - it all

Happiness in a box. The memories made, The hopes created. Happiness is just Round the corner. Talks with a good friend, Laying under a tree, Headphones in, Music up. Happiness comes from Within.. The world spins on, But you my dear, You have me, Us in this world, Two Makes a pair. Happiness takes on a new meaning.. Autumn days, The changes of leaves, The oranges, the reds, the yellows, Breezy days, The energy of change, Happiness foretold by nature, God's beauty all around As the sun sets, And dream is captured in a ball Sitting on top of a car, Watching, waiting, The Happiness, as the world stands still. A star filled night, Sharing a blanket, On A cool fall's night, The crisp of winters coming bite, Warmth created, You and I.. The warmth of happiness.. To A moments view, It Sees the happiness unfolding. Happiness in a box, Happiness is yours to make. Happiness comes from above. You, me, we're apart of it. God gave us this, His joy, his love, His happiness. It stems from h

Gratuity - Paying a tip for service - 10% standard, 15% for services worth mentioning, 20% and up for those who truly stand out. So for friendship.. Can we tip for a helping hand? Can we honestly pay back a friend? To that person who was there through the tears? Through the moments of hardship? There is no price tag to friendship, No "tip" after a leant hand. But honest caring is, A mark of a true friend. Can we really mean a "thank-you?" Can we truly mean "any time you need me?" Do we care? Would we inconvenience ourselves? Like our friend did? Some people just give, Some people are just self less, Some people are just good friends. They care, because they do. No rhyme or reason behind it. They'll give because love is their motive. Thank-you. To the friends I've known and know - Thank-you. I love you, without you my life, life wouldn't be the same. You all have helped me become the person I am today. There aren't enough words to portray, T

"If only I had an enemy bigger than my apathy I could have won." Real people feel, Not pretend all is well, When it clearly isn't. Not pretending to be, But clearly seeing, And being how you see it. If you're pissed, Be pissed. If you're sad, Then don't fake happiness. Be the person you are now, For now I see the person you are. And that is the person i can love. People don't want fake pretenders, But real individuals. There's enough of those who pretend. Enough of those wanna be's. The world needs more truth. Shun evil - accept truth. "believe in absolute truth, its the sum of existence; all truth,  regardless of where it stems from." "Truth will stand, truth will endure." Evil resides from dark natures, Fake pretenders, those afraid of who they are. There is nothing wrong with who you are, Just what you want others to perceive you as. Only bad things come from those good intentions, That don't have a follow through. Intent

A repeating song has it's tune, But the words keep you remembering, The reasons why it's on repeat. Repeating thoughts, Take you to those reasons why, You know, And You see why, You need to keep the track running. Sometimes, You've done your best, Many times, It's best to just walk away. Stop hurting yourself. There comes a time when you have to make a decision or you'll become a victim of the decision, You won't make. A lesson I've learned, Is to Just take a bow, You've played your heart out. You Gave it your best, And Gave it your all. Stay out of your head, You'll only make it worse. Who cares, It's not even about you, It's about him, or her.. Maybe he never saw you, Maybe she just didn't love you the way you loved her. It shouldn't change anything. Either way, Remember - it's not about you. Nothing is wrong with the person you are. If anything - something is wrong with them.

It's funny when you think, That I once trusted you with everything. Call me a fool, call me what you may, But I thought more of you. Couldn't blame me, Maybe I take chances to soon, But maybe I did think to much.. But I have no idea where else my heart could have been. The places I've been, The places I've seen, Will only mark the past as in the future, I will go so many more places. I did what I thought, As I did what I knew, The right way to turn, The right way to fall. Only god knew, This outcome which came. But I can tell you now, I am better off, For the pictures I once had, Up in my head was all but fake. I thought to much, I gave more than I should have, But in the end, I am finishing up, on top. For now I know, And now I've seen, The ways i once tought, To live my life, Is all but a lie. The past is known, The present changes, My future is great, The walk I must make, Is now moving forward, You never came, You never followed. I took the lead, And tripped mys

I can't stop the thinking, Nor can I stop the way my thoughts come together. Truly it's quite humorous. I can't stop this flow, The fluidity of complexity. The freezing water stops the heart, But the mind cannot freeze, The thoughts of tomorrow. My mind goes on and on, give me a pill? A sweet remedy to sooth this passing. Calm down, Stop, and breathe. Look around, and remember,  you won't get older thinking, But life will pass you by. The thoughts of aging, Scary, but there is never enough time in a day. Clean up the mess, Organize your thoughts, Take a walk, Go for a drive. Then get on with the next day with a fervency for the next possibilities. Infuse your life with energy, And get back to work. So when you get older, You'll look at life and know, You did the best you could, And you'll not regret a minute.

"Together through" The warmth of a friend, Will drown out the coldness of loneliness. The darkness around will try to cover up the light of your life. I will provide the light to which will push away the darkness. The friendship made, Will shine through the ages, Nothing can cover it. Although life is hard, You will not have to go through it unnoticed, Or unwanted. We know each other. Though lone is the way, And dark is the day, We'll hold each others hand, As we walk. You may be used to a life alone, No one to be there through this. But although you may not yet see it, "You're not alone in this" Your hand will be held, And you will be taken care of. Together through - this will happen. Alone is not an option; Nor is there going to be one ahead of the other. Together, side by side, you will see. Although new this may be, Step by step, The road will unfold. Lucky we are, For now we know one another. Now w

Come and do - "Come thou fount of every blessing" Blessings come after the trial of your faith, and faith precedes the miracle. Get off of your butt and turn on the light, Then have faith it will turn on. Chose faith over the unseen, The faith of one - supersedes the motions of 1000s, if the motions lacks the faith and conviction of the actions. The acts of doing, sits in the lap of faith. Without one, there cannot be another. Believing that something is, will stop, if one cannot do. Believing is the forerunner of faith. Knowledge is the enemy of faith, if not tied with humility. To stay close to the faith, perspective is necessary. To see the love and devotion of one who believes, Then walks in faith,  knowing, and not seeing is the key of unlocking, The secrets faith brings to light. Accept that life is hard. It's different for all walks of life, No two people are the same. To be happier than most, One must accept this. Ride o

We're gonna give, The kind of giving only heard about in books. We're gonna sing, The words of a famous love song. We're gonna know, That such things aren't ever this lucky. The words by which I know, That such things only exist in a dream for me. Is that I know, I havent met you until now. Just like you, I've never done this before, I've never had that kinda start, The new found hope, Found in the night, The new found hearts, Lost in time. The hopeless, Of pasts that has tainted our visions. Those unseen walls, Used to shelter our fears. Come on, We dont need to hold back. That kinda fire, That kinda explosiveness, That everyone else seems to have. Everyone else has a different kind of story, No two tales are quite the same. But this for sure, Is our own. So come on, Give into this. Use our words, Use our hopes, Use the air around us; To propel us forward into the future. Come on, just come on, Give into thi

I once started a blog, a blog which talked about new beginnings and fresh starts. Love found it's way into the view as the focus. It became clear to me that heartbreak wasn't something expected, but it showed it's ugly face and tainted the pages for a season. The blog was renamed "keep the car running" a song from the famous Grammy winner band The Arcade Fire. For a long time I've been running. Moving from city to city, in hopes of finding a new home - a new life. A lot has happened over this time. Words spoke from my heart, experiences were penned onto a canvas. It's been a growing time for me. In tribute to this time, Ive posted the song that said it all. "Keep the car running" in reality, I was scared of what it might mean to stop the car and settle down. Now after a year of wandering. I may still be stuck in between two cities, but I have found a home. I can stop the car, for a season, I am happy with myself. Happy with the future ahe

A song of the heart, Sweet music that touches the soul, Lulibyes that soothes a little one. Songs that tell you all will be okay, Songs that tell you to run. Little things bring out the worst, That only a song can explain. Words may rhyme, Words might ring true, But music speaks to the soul. Melodies simple and true, Verses deap and melodic. The most simple of songs, Can and often promote changes. Songs of the heart, Turn people to home, The home of where your heart is. Emptiness reminds you, That your heart is not safe, The time for a change, Prompted by another song. Songs that remind you of your purpose. Songs that bring back into light, The reason why you came this far. A song that teaches patience, The soothing tones of comfort, Peach, serenity.. Let the song from your heart, Teach or reteach you, The meanings of life. Let the song become you. Let it resonate, Let it sound.

My Father's way may twist and turn, My heart may throb and ache. But in my soul I'm glad I know, He Maketh no mistake. My cherished plans may go astray, my hopes may fade away, but still I'll trust my Lord to lead, for he doth know the way. Tho' night be dark and it may seem, that day will never break; I'll pin my faith, my all in Him, He Maketh no mistake. There's so much now I cannot see, my eyesights far too dim; but come what may, I'll simply trust and leave it all to Him. For by and by the mist will lift and plain it all He'll make. Through all the way, tho' dark to me, He made not one mistake.

Find a home, find safety. Find a place to rest your head, eat, and drink plenty of water. Don't get stuck on the technical details, live a bit, don't get lost, but be free. Lost in the world, lost in your mind. Can't see the way things are, can't tell whats real or fake. Why? open your eyes, Life is much much more! "Be down" with the changes, be down with the experiences life offers. Things don't ever truly slow down, it's just you losing perspective. The hopes of tomorrow reside in your heart, the work of today, prepares for the roads of your next life. basic truths hold you close to home. The distance you place yourself at, effects whom you draw closer to. Stay close to home as you, so you don't get lost in this world.

You Can't help the way you feel, when love first comes knocking on your door. No one can explain, why people fall for those they fall for. Love is in-explainable... You can't deny the truth of your heart, nor can you fight how your heart of hearts responds... Raw emotion, euphoric dream like state, to those in it - God bless you, hold on to it, make it work, let it happen. To those fallen out of love, Please don't hate it, Be brave, and let in in again when the time comes for it. Not to many things truly matter in lif., Money goes away, people disappear, But love, no love lasts. Even if out of spite and hate, Once in love, a bit of it will always be with you. You don't even have to try, be in the right spot at the right now, and love will find you. Those who follow their hearts, rather than their minds, find it. Be true to yourself, and know who you are, and what you want out of love. Those people find true love. It's scary, but true. Love changes people lives. It c

There's a darkness in my soul, that haunts me as I walk. I see the same in you. Can you see it in me? I wonder the roads of life, lost and scared for the trials ahead. The day came when the dark clouds full of doubt, haunted the very stepped I walked. I doubted who I was, the person I can be, and the person I know I will be. Then I decided, to test my fears, and overcome my doubts. I chose the light in the fixture of doubt. I decided to be that person, that person who will hold my head up tall through pain, smile through misery, run when others walk, hold firm in my faith; - with the faith and knowledge, That I am apart of something beyond myself. The Darkness I often feel, I will not let others get hurt by it. I have felt the pains of life, felt the miseries of sin, pondered at the pool of meaningless philandering, I've bled, and cried. But through it all I will stand a bit taller, hold strong to my beliefs, and know that I am not alone in this. Divine love is on my side. I ca

The Night all around, speaks of sweet serenity's, and sweet nothings. The glow of the moon, brings to life the secrets of the night. Each toss and turn, draws me closer to the dream, the dream of you in it, that you and I are together, that we're happy, and care free. The world under the moon, the soft breeze of night, only makes me long to be with you. A good night kiss, the soft embrace, the sparkle of your eye, the curl of your lips as they smile.. I can't keep you off of my mind. I am blessed to have you in my life, I've waited my whole life for someone like you, to share a night like this, even if it's in our dreams, I still have you to dream about. Good night now love, I know the distance is hard, but in sleep, we'll draw closer in our dreams.

I don't get why you don't see, the way the world is as you sleep, the colors are brighter than you think, the world is yours for you to take, just give it a chance to take off. I can't understand why you cant see, the way that I see you, and you see me. Just please understand I'm the one, who wants you to succeed. You may feel empty, you may be afraid, so am I. It's a scary world, I wish things could be better, I wish it didn't hurt the way it has.. Insecurities make it hard, un-healed hearts prevents feeling. The fears from passed tragedies, and hardships of old are nearly unbearable. Find strength in pain, find hope in those who believe in you, realize that you're not alone, and that you're loved. Realize how you can move on, and that all arrows point to a new world. Don;t give up, wake up in a new world, where hope shines a new, and the world is brighter.

(listen to song as you read) How you thought the world was yours, you never stopped when others told you too. You sought for the sun, and reached the moon. You're dreams has always been full, endless and made for just you. No one told you other wise. A little girl you were, A little girl you remained, somehow you never aged, only grew up. The years spinned on, they twisted and turned, but somehow here you are, your skin still as porcelyn, that youthful smile ever bright, the sparkle in your eyes, ever strong. The world you live in, has been yours. The hurt of the years, the tragedies, fallen from your shoulders, hasn't marked you for the wrong. You're still that bright girl, though a little tainted, Now has loved and will love again. Although you couldn't have changed it all, you still made it all your own. Now you're everything you've ever wanted to be, You're that girl, who made the world your own.

A song portrays the heart, in all of it's complexities and dynamics. People can't comprehend the effect one might have on another. Let us remember that bonds of love and companionship are rare and far between. Let us love without regret, let us live with a thought of every new day that's about to begin. Let us bask in the moment, enjoy the most simplistic of lifes grand offers. I hope we dance, till the night is over, hope with love all the stronger, hope we explode into a new star, ever shining and ever present. You knew me before I knew me, now you know me. I know things are the way they are, and I know openings are just a start. and not meant to end. "You're the one I want to see me through all the stupid Shit I've done."

In the art of war, there will always be two victors. The better of the two opponents - the strongest, most talented, spirited, and quickest will win. Those with true grit, with True devotion to their cause willcome out on top.. It's never fair yet always assured. Yet truly their aren't any victors in war. Just lucky bloaks who get their way. All is laid on the line, Hopes, dreams, loves, could all come crashing to one end. Yet war is a must. Life is an evil place. Evil people will strive to tear down that which is good. As the heart of war is found, Pick the better side. Stay close to those who love you. Hold their hands, And assure them that their nut alone. Everyday is a fight. Everyday is start to another finish. Fight for the right to live. Seize the day. Stand and not fall. In love, want more. Want and get. Fight for what is wanted. Live for every moment. If you want more love, Just say it. The heart of war, Is but an ideal. Make it your own, And let it blossom. Don't

"Like a snake within the wilted garden wall I’d hint to her every possibility While with his gun the pagan angel rose to say "My love is one made to break every bended knee"" It's interesting to think, that you can't change certain event. Just like one who tries to chose the one he loves. I laugh at the thought that some people just try to hard. What's the point? Do your part, then in the end if it happens, it would. Sometimes you just can't control the way things end, nor can you prevent certain endings. Only God knows the way things ought to be, and how they will end up. You can't let the world tell you how things ought to be. You must be yourself, wake up to the moment, jump when the opportunity arises to jump. Don't fool yourself in believing anything but whats in front of your face. Don't make believe a world, just be realistic then be true to yourself. The way things are, is the way things were meant to be. I'm grateful to have

How did you know? that so many things can be explained with a simple kiss. How could you tell? That the little things explain so much? How did you know? that you could win me back the way you did? How could I have known? I hated you, you hurt me, you stung me; yet through it all - Here you are. Why couldn't it have been? I don't know if it's for the better, but either way you're still here and I don't want you to go any where, yet I will follow my heart and let things be. You know me as I know you, Things can only get better. With you in my life, things couldn't be better. I hope you can see it on my face as I look at you, Sometimes I can't say, but I can only stop and remember, you have been my muse all along, I can't deny it, my heart wont let me. I hope you can see that it's all written on my face, those words the lines, the experiences that have cultivated the love we have for one another. To you I write this note, for me I must think it over, bu

To you I'll give my Everything, To you I'll give my mind and all that comes with it. To you I could give my heart, wrapped with velvet lace. I could give you the time of your life, full of sunshine and blue skies. Even better, plenty of whatever, You name it, we'll do it. I'm ready for more, one way or another. Let's make the magic continue, Let's keep the spark alive. I'll tell you now, That I can love you, with all of my heart. I wouldn't hesitate, nor apologize. I'll give you my everything, I'll give you my dreams, and make your dreams come true. We'll cover the bumps, and move passed the downs. We'll complete one another, turn the world upside down, and create love. Whatever the cost is, rather its the burden a couple vices, or personality flaws. nothing can change, That I think the world of you. Lets do this, Shall we?

Just me with my thoughts, Not really with any sort of distinct or clear patterns, Just a jumbled mess of nonsense, Don't really know what I should say, or do. I guess I can start with a Thank-you, I'm glad that you're out, and not it. All i can think about now is the next trip I will go on. The new and endless possibilities, inspired by the open road and the breeze of warm air. So I'm just me, alone with my thoughts, They Don't make any sense, Just a jumbled mess of nothings. You might have had the last words, but I've had the last laugh. Are you serious? I am. I still have that smile on my face. The last smile I made when I put you out of my life. Aren't you glad that I have a sense of humor? You should be. I am here, Alone with my thoughts, The thought of you makes me happy oddly, I can't say why. Am I making any sense at all? Listen to this song, I'll kick you in the head. Oh it doesn't matter to me, I bet you wish it did? So it's just me,

I'm at peace with the decision. Happy with the outcome. I know you, and you know me, We are both one of a kind, Full of strength, While imperfect, We still find comfort in each others arms, rather its just a thought, or just a glance. we know what could be, and to that we'll be at peace, that at one day we might find it all, in the arms of each other. you're the best thing, I know not why, but I can't lie, this is in my heart, and that I can't deny. to you I make this simple note. keep it dear, as I hold you dear. I'm always here, and will hear you, Will hold you as you need holding, and will kiss you as the fates align. I'm the person you need, and I'm not going anywhere. you're in my life, and I'm in yours. this is how I want it. as is what you tell me. we'll find each other. that's for certain. my dear, I'll never be to far away...

It's simple - live life the way you want it to be. We are who we are, that's for sure. But we can still move forward; how and to what you want it to be. As kids, we saw life, as a make believe film. We played cops and robbers, climbed to the tops of Houses, slid down roofs, hid from mom and dad. Played till we had to come in. We got older, and summers never lasted long enough. We were the kings of the world. No one could tell us other wise, we did what we wanted to, and without excuses. As we grew past adolescence, Our world expanded, the sights seen, made more of an imprint on who we are. We experience more of life, the tragedies and the joys. We become real, and deep; full of scars. But they can't touch me. I see the world as it is, one hell of a messed up place. The one thing I know I can control, is that person I know I am. "I'm a modern man"

As the Turmoil swirls around in my head, The trials I am asked to face press upon me, encloses me and threatens to trap me inside of myself. And wants to tear me apart. The stresses of the day weigh more on the morrow. I wake up threatening to myself- I will not move, That I just don't care anymore. I often wonder what will happen if I just lay here? Scared to move, would anyone care? Then I thought of you, The mysterious woman of my heart, Even hurt as I am, Doesn't change the peace I could find with you by my side. Its the uniqueness of the moment, As is the spontaneous world you live in, Which is the realization in this reality that anything can fade. Even though it is as it is, I like to think back to the moment we met, And how I can find hope in that time. Regardless of what happens; at least, to this I know: that such magical moments are still liable to happen. I find hope that someday the clouds will dissipate, and again, someday, I will find the comfort of love. Even as

Whistling through life, not ever knowing which is right, rather its the person you are today, or the person you imagine when you look into the mirror. You can't tell the difference of white to black, Nor can you see past shades of gray that your world consists of. You want more, but always settle for less. You plead for simplicity and love, but yell and fight at every passing moments. I don't know why you do this, but I can't stand it. Can't you just be nice, and be yourself? Today you're lovable, tomorrow you're fake and mellow dramatic. I wish someone could just say, that you need to stop, sit down, and see a therapist. Fa Fa is what I have to say to you. a simple meaningless phrase, as is the ground you generally walk on. Frustration meets a new height, as does the irritation I often feel when you whine and complain, yet again... Karma will come your way, the same karma you steal from those more deserving of it than you. I have friends that work for so much m

Its quite simple really, like one two three. A boy loves a girl, The Girl Loves the boy. The look in their eyes, the hope in their hearts. If you have something, Don't pretend its not there. I Don't live in riddles, I think in twos, and threes. Those divisible by each other, makes sense in my head. I don't like cliff hangers, not when it comes to love. My head's up in the air, bring it down. There may be water under the bridge, But tell me as I have you. I like you, You like me, Lets do it. I'm not asking for much, Just the truth, don't get jealous of others, if you can't do something about it. If you could just tell me, "I'm yours, be mine" Okay, it's simple. "Yes, I'm yours." I'm done with the games, and the riddles, the hidden motives, I know you, You know me better than most. If you want it, awesome, cool. I want you too, I'll be yours forever. If not, I'll be okay with only the prospect of friendship between u

A smile is on my face, it's been a while since it's been this way. A new fire has been lit. I see things differently now, Somethings happen, I can't quite pick it out. Where have you been? Wait, you've always been in my life. Thanks for this new sensation, This new smile, you make the days go by faster, a sky without any clouds on a sunny day. New air, A New Start, A fresh look. I'm crazy about you, and it scares me more than I dare to say. But thanks for it all! To you I write this, To you I hope and pray this wont end!

It's Sad to think, That with our story as it is, And you with your mind made up, would say that we as one, will no longer dance as you and I. Not that I blame you, You're heart is fragile, and my mistakes have been many, But as I see it somethings only improve. I'm not saying that all will be as was, or that I am perfect, but things change, and you know me, I can't give up a fight. When you tell me what you're struggling with, I have to shut certain things out, For my initial responses is to take care of it all, and be what you need in every sense of that phrase. But I with your desire in mind, have to keep a certain distance to keep my heart in tact. I must do what I can to mimic the same thoughts you share, that we are not right together, To respect your wishes, I must comply. It's not all that bad I guess, For things wouldn't entirely be easy, as people like you and me, aren't the easiest of people. But with all things in mind, I will still be able to

I've already decided, that this year will be more complete, shine much brighter, Be more than 2010 could have ever been. Last year, burnt a hole in my heart, Taught me how to love, the meaning of that word, That life isn't something to toy with, that you will be burned if you don't set your mind against it, That even after your best effort you can still fail. It has taught me how to become more, to stretch to the very limits of what you thought you could be, and come out higher than you could have ever. 2010 was a year of hardships and trials with the rewards at the end. I see life differently, I see depth, I see colors in things that were once gray. Music has a new meaning, words aren't just words, but portraits of the heart mixed with a tune that fabricates life. To you 2011, I will make you the most it could ever be. There might be bags under my eyes, I might grow several grey hairs, but I'm not stopping till I accomplish what I know I can. 2011 you are mine, I w

Two attached, is two in love. Those whose hearts has grown as one. Whose friendship has withstood the tempests of life, and will endure throughout the eternities. The look into their eyes speak of time unbending; with the willingness to grow old together. I know that love is there, it's real and available to anyone. It's true, love completes, and it heals the holes in ones heart. I can't help but smile at the thought, that someday I will find it again. Rather I know her or not, It doesn't matter, The time will come, if it hasn't already. The Hope in a weary heart, is that it can happen. Just dance at the beat, leap at the moment, look like an idiot to just make her smile. Go after it, you don't always have to know, Just trust in it. Let the fire never die, even after 100 burnt out attempts. Never stop to wonder, for you might miss out. Pick it up, cherish it, Sometimes even in the most unlikely places, you can find it. Love spoken, is a love budding. This is tru

The soft spoken words of a mother to her child, or the soothing serenity found as the wind softly lifts your hair, the eyes of a father while looking upon his new son, The soft touch of ones lips as they find a long awaited home in the arms of soon to be lovers. Look at me, tell me. Let me feel the warmth of your love, Let me hear the softness of your voice, let me see the same nervousness I feel, entrenched on your face. Comfort, a soothing remedy that heals the wandering heart. The warmth of our embrace as we hold each other dear, The hope of a single soft spoken promise, The knowledge of trust you hold in me. The quick but swirling stir as the wind picks up autumns leaves. The twinkle in your eye as I carry you to your bed or to your car. But yet, with all of the tenderness around us, There is one not often mentioned.. A softer and less spoken voice. A voice not often heard, but yet we know that it's there, It's the tenderness that comes from up above. All that is soft and l