The Depth of a Soul..

The thoughts of a person defines who they are. The heart of a person defines the way they can love. Into arms and out... Find the person who can catch you, If you fall I'll be there. If you trip, I'll hold your hand. If you're lost in the dark I will provide the light. "Don't speak about it, Let it happen." What is there is for only us to have. If we have each other, we'll have the world. At the tips of our fingers. Thanks for telling me what will cripple people, Thanks for showing me the light of so many things. Thanks for telling me that I am my own worst enemy, and I don;t need to worry. This new light has begun, is brightening up a new day. The sky is bluer than normal, the grays are vastly dissipating, The darkness of the hours are all but gone now. You've been right all along on so many levels. It's taken me so much to see that. Thanks.

It's hit hard tonight, Sometimes you can't escape it. No matter how hard you try to set it aside. The pain of feeling alone stabs at your heart. Only thoughts are... "what did I do" the the whisper comes into my head: "You're not alone, I'm here, my son." I can't forget that, I may have been through a lot, A life I wanted so bad May be set aside for now, But my savior is here for me. My prophet and redeemer... I need to draw closer to him. I still feel a part of my heart missing. Time will have to heal that. I just need to stay on this path towards righteousness, I need to keep hold to the rod. Our time will come again (whoever she is) I am loved and cared for my a heavenly mother and father. I am never alone unless I do it to myself. My sins haunt me... Today was a day of sorrow for them. Somethings I have no one there to talk with, I must deal with it on my own, But with my savior to be there to guide me and hold my hand. I must stay true to my

The start of a new love. Sure, it wasn't perfect but still those first moments. Things changed, my life was taken by a whirlwind, I was brought to a new world, A new life, Somewhere I'm sure God's hand played a role. That was the first time of my life... Things were rocky, Angels we needed; then angels we became, We brought it out of each other. Even the hardest times couldn't hide it. For whatever reason we both turned each others life's upside down. Everything changed, I couldn't have wanted more. Things turned dark, Dark clouds hung above, Things take forever, and oh boy how I am slow. My hard head takes a beating before it learns. But if you can accept this, I hope you can, I have been learning from you. I have taken you into my life. "I’m glad I didn’t die before I met you But now I don’t care I could go anywhere with you And I’d probably be happy”" Rather to what end I cannot see. I swear I've changed,(I can't believe it) I don't know

So what?

Sometimes life comes at you with so many different angles, perspectives that help to clarify things. Sometimes things aren't always as it seems. Maybe the timing was wrong, maybe the difference was that I just wasn't true to myself, sometimes complicated messes are a lot more simple than we understand, sometimes what we perceived wasn't it. Maybe I'm a dreamer Maybe I'm misunderstood Maybe you're not seeing the side of me you should Maybe I'm crazy But I do know that you've been in my life for reasons, for only God knows those true reasons. Maybe I am still just that dreamer, dreaming for a different day; a better day. Maybe I will just die a dreamer. Maybe dreaming will just be it. But my dreaming brings air to my winds...

There is a place where we all must go, A place so dark and lonely we wonder, "why?" Desolation is left in its wake. We are a lone now, Helpless and on our own.. The 100 reason's why not, Were misconstrued with the games our mind plays. Hope is dangling, hurt stings, Pain leaves us paralyzed. Dreams are tainted, Our Lives shattered... Does anyone feel what I do? Can anyone relate to the empty void resonating in my breast? Questions in our minds... Yet wasn;t there one who walked before us? The masked one, The unseen and hated one. Our brother has felt the pains, He's walked our paths, when we've been helpless and alone. He knows the depth of our sorrow, he knows the length of the path we are walking on. he knows where the light is at the end of the tunnel. As we trust in his arm, he will share our burdens, he will lift the chains holding us to the ground. All we need to do is hope, believe in him, love him as he loves us. We are not alone. There is one who loves us

Take a couple of steps into the darkness, then the Lord will provide you the light to get across... I am learning, I am reminiscing the times past, remember those irritating things about you that drove me crazy. Things I wish were better, I didn't want to be the excuse, but the reason for it all. Many memories that follow me, when it comes to you I know what I don't like, I know you're not perfect. I wonder if you would do anything for me? Many times you would keep so many things inside, I can feel that gap, that void, that we would normally fill. Things on your mind are portrayed with the distance you shove me away... With these reminders, at the end of the day... I still know these few things: I still love you, I still adore you, I still want to have the rest of my life with you by my side. I still am the dreamer, and you're my precious sleeper. Today was hard, I felt the void, I went to the airport, tears of reminders... I visited for the first time since, the house

Don't fall in love, it will bite you. When you're in love, you're stupid, and you justify things. You say things like "Oh it's ok, we're in love and it will be ok" Or when you should have stopped, you carry on with hope, until the day comes when your on the bottom of a million foot deep trench, wandering what the hell you could have done to get in it, but you feel comfortable down there bc you're alone to your own misery. It's torment, and it's stupid. Why do people do it to themselves. Well I hate it. I hate that I hurt, and I hate that I want to keep hurting It's like everywhere I look there are more people in love, Not just in love but happy. Is something wrong with me? Why? Why? Why? All I wanted was it... I know what I had was true, It's been tainted, It's hard now, It's not easy. One thing after another. Well I've done my best, Gave it my all, been true to what I knew was right... I would do it all over again. But now