The Depth of a Soul..

After all this time There's a spot in my heart That remains Tender for you I've been here You've been there And we always come back to Where we met. As the best friends we remain It's like your engine comes back to spark with my energy  While your energy, Sparks mine.  Then we leave again and again And like a fool, my heart waits Why cover yours? I'm not hanging onto anything Or even stuck where I shouldn't Maybe at time But not now See? I just can't help it. I used to ask myself Why can't we let go? Can you see now? Our hearts only Run when we're in the same space. It's as if we're trying to convince the cosmos, That we aren't pulled to each other. It's as if the God's above are laughing at us.  At times I recognize  some of that leaving has to do with me. I know I've pushed too hard.  Yet, what if? What if we skipped the "leaving part"  And just stayed still, Then move together? We can,  Shake hands with the devil ...

I could've been with anybody, Yet I chose you. No one knew what I was going through, somehow you did. It took me many moments to get used to you, It boiled down to, Those day's with you,  Were always better than the day's without you. You  became  so hard to resist, Till' the moment when, I was with someone new, And couldn't stop thinking about you. I didn't know what I'd do if I’d lost you. I still remember when, When you were mine.. The way you were mine, The day's melted away, Your touch blended into mine, Your kiss became all I wanted Our body's were one. I learned to love you for you, To love again.  All of the crazy, became my crazy, Our crazy.. What was real,  was what we made. Through sickness, Our time like this was cut short. The reality was, I wasn't in a place to be with anyone, Let alone, you.  'Cause I barely knew myself back then, Yet with you, I found myself again. You set that in motion, Thank you. I held onto that for a lo...

  A shot in the arm A shot through the heart. High voltage, An ending. To the feeling that I lost today, To an ending, An ending that was,  An ending that didn’t have to be. Opened doors leads to closed, Yet somehow, we never talk about the act of the door swinging. Fast and deliberate, Slowly yet deliberate, Or a slight, slip of the hand.  Was it deliberate bc you let it slip? It didn’t have to be this way, Didn’t have too, Yet, here we are. You are somewhere, On the path of your choosing, To the attention that you seek, and the arms you aim to be held in, Anyone’s, as that’s what you need in the moment.  The reality that you’re willing to let slip, Something so rare, so beautiful, Just shows that there’s nothing else left to do. (It’s never been masked what you are to me.) But to let go. Finally. Man it’s been so long since the start of this, Something I never thought I’d have to do, Yet I need to, Let go..  Here it is. After all this time.. Taken me a while t...

I caught sight of this fleeting image, The sun is setting, Tears glistening in your eyes, A faint smile on your lips.. I've never had such a sight, Burn itself into my mind...  You're gone. As it's been before, Again and again, Over and over. Though I think that this time is different, It's feels, different... I can't read your mind, yet I see it in your eyes.  I'm left seeing, Left knowing, It was there, It's always been there... Time and time again. I look at you, You look at me, Can you ever know? Can you ever really know? You say the sun doesn't shine for you, Yet I see it in your eyes, Feel it from your heart. Though the loneliness you feel, The loneliness you know.. Even if it doesn't seem sensible,  I see it in your eyes, Oh how I wish you knew, That this isn't meant for you.. I can't read your mind, Though I try all the time, I see it in your eyes. This time, as always, There's something that I know.. Now you're gone, A hole ...

Hope, As the pendulum swings. Too and fro. You've come to know me, I've come to let you in. I've gotten to know you, You're seeing me become..  It's all we could ever want, All we could ever need. A combustible, out of this world connection. We've come to love each other, and have come to a beautiful place. We have each other, need one another.  It's been an incredible journey to here, With all the ups and those lows. You've come to see me as, The man who's stood by your side through everything, Held your hand, Had your back, When you didn't even have it. The man you've needed, As the man who's been it all.. Yet, you've come to take me for granted. To take this, for granted. I say you're spoiled. Spoiled in everything we share, It's your everything, All the while you're so willing to let it go .  Do you even know what you're doing? You live in this story, A story where you've made up your mind. Regardless of how am...

Everybody's story is different, Every path has it's twists, has its turns.  As much as we can love it, Is as much as we can hate it.  Life isn't meant to be linear, Life isn't meant to be a "one try win all" type gig. Sometimes you pass go and collect money,  Many times you end up owing it.  There is no certainty's, just assurances.  An assurance that if you try your hardest, you'll get the most out of whatever is in front of you. An assurance that you wont have regrets. Assurances that if you be you, you will will have nothing to be ashamed of. An assurance that if you love with all you have to love,  You would have laid it all on the table, no guilt, no shame, no regrets. Assurance comes from within. That although you may never get back all you put in, You can at least say: "good job, you made it the best you could."  You gave it your heart, you gave it your all. To that end you will find your peace.  Know this: Live let live always. When y...

Today, Tomorrow. Here,  There. Everywhere, Nowhere.  Why? Who? Annoying, Irritating. I hate your stinkin' guts, I love your stinkin' face.  Not enough, A bit too much. You're everything, But not enough. Yesterday, A dream ago, A bit late, A bit too soon. Sometimes its just not meant to make sense. You're everything, My everything, Yet never enough... It's as if life is stuck in reverse, Where the reverse logic prevails, And common sense is fleeting. The easy, Simple facts, Simple truths, are what isn't reality, yet the complete most asinine ideas, Are what prevails. At least consistency prevails, When insanity rests, When the illogical fades into the the background. At the end of the day, Your life is only dictated by you. Your choices, Your truths.  Hopefully your goal is to find them. Live in them. Find people who welcome you, the way you can welcome them.  I've been stuck in this before.  A never ending cycle of inconsistency's and partial desires, Th...