still remember when

I could've been with anybody,

Yet I chose you.

No one knew what I was going through,

somehow you did.

It took me many moments to get used to you,

It boiled down to,

Those day's with you, 

Were always better than the day's without you.

You became so hard to resist,

Till' the moment when,

I was with someone new,

And couldn't stop thinking about you.

I didn't know what I'd do if I’d lost you.

I still remember when,
When you were mine..

The way you were mine,

The day's melted away,

Your touch blended into mine,
Your kiss became all I wanted
Our body's were one.

I learned to love you for you,

To love again. 

All of the crazy, became my crazy,

Our crazy..

What was real, 

was what we made.

Through sickness,

Our time like this was cut short.

The reality was,

I wasn't in a place to be with anyone,

Let alone, you. 

'Cause I barely knew myself back then,

Yet with you,

I found myself again.

You set that in motion,

Thank you.

I held onto that for a long time..

I still remember when,

When you were mine,

Your hand in mine.

You would tell me when,

and let me hold you then.

We were inseparable.

Time after time,

Again and again,

We became each others most important Persons'

We held each other's hearts,

While interlocked in each other's energy. 

Yet there was a paradigm shift,

At this point,

What we were,

Became forgotten.

I, became different to you.

Though my love for you remained undying,

again and again,

You tossed it away,

and took it for granted,

Time after time.

I'll never love again
The way I loved you.
Did you find someone new?
'Cause I remember when,
Still remember when you were mine,
We were inseparable at one time.
You knew my love for you was undying,
You'd say you always had my back
Are you doing this for them?

Is this happening to you?

As it typically goes..

Whenever I turned my back,

You'd be giving yourself to anyone else.. 

You would become: my upper and my downer.

My habit,

My addiction.

My head became clouded with fallacies,

I couldn't see the road ahead,

Or even the road I was on. 

All I could see was how it was when I was with you,

As that's all I wanted to remember when we were apart.

I didn't know what to do when I wasn't with you..

Then the day came,

That while I was with you,

I learned how to do this myself,

I came to no longer need you,

But to want you.

To Want the way you are,

The person you are,

Want how we are,

What we do,

Want those nights together,

How you are with my daughter..

Yet,

That never happened for you.

As I wanted harder,

You came to want everyone else more.

Then you'd do it for them.

'Cause every-time I'd turned around,

You'd run out on me.

Then come back to me,

When you needed a pillow to cry into,

It came to taking this for-granted.

I became invisible,

No longer seen for what we could be,

But what you could do while I was still in your life.

You see? 

I never stopped remembering then,

The way I loved you,

Even as you'd find someone new,

'Cause I'd remember then.

How it was to love you,

and still remember when,

you were mine.. 

How can the healthiest part of your life,

Become the one thing you could live without?,

Yet couldn't at the same time?

Clouded with fallacies,

Shrouded with inconsistencies.. 

'Cause I remember when,

It went from Healthy to Unhealthy,

from Happiness to Resentment,

I realized it became that,

as I couldn't let go

Wouldn't see passed,

Held on too tight.. 

So now it's over,

For the sake of pride,

All for a narrative,

As that's what it became.

Somehow yet,

I still remember when..