Longing...

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I can't look at someone without missing things. I look for reminders. I can;t help it, I do things so that I can help to mask how I really feel inside. I can;t help the way I feel. It hurts inside. I miss her, I miss her eyes, I miss her skin, her smile, her figure, her lips on mine, her small hands, small feet, I so wanted to be the last blossom, the happy ending, I cant mask that. I have a gaping hole, nothing feels complete. Why, WHY, WWWHHHYYYY!!! I want to see if she feels the same. I want to know if she cares. If she feels the way I do.

I miss so many things about her... I can only mask it... I miss those times watching T.V. in her house. I miss talking to her, sharing with her bits and pieces of her soul. I miss when she opened up to me. I miss when she talked to me about what's on her mind.

No matter what else I can't help these feelings. I wanted so much to be the happy ending with her there. I hate this. I have to put these feelings somewhere. I go home and I can;t help when the tears start falling. I wish she wouldn't run. That she would stop and let it out...

Why can't she...

Oh, why you look so sad?
Tears are in your eyes
Come on and come to me now

Don't be ashamed to cry
Let me see you through
'cause I've seen the dark side too

When the night falls on you
You don't know what to do
Nothing you confess
Could make me love you less

I'll stand by you
I'll stand by you
Won't let nobody hurt you
I'll stand by you

I feel like an idiot for the ways I've hurt her, I've let her down... I know it and it kills me inside because I want to be this person. I have been this person. I love her... I can't stop it. I only ache trying to hide the way I feel...

So if you're mad, get mad
Don't hold it all inside
Come on and talk to me now

Hey, what you got to hide?
I get angry too
Well I'm a lot like you...

I know her, she is hurting about something, I feel like it is me. But she wont look to me for any answers, she just keeps running. Stop, turn to me. Let me know, let me help...

When you're standing at the crossroads
Don't know which path to choose
Let me come along
'cause even if you're wrong

I'll stand by you
I'll stand by you
Won't let nobody hurt you
I'll stand by you
Take me in into your darkest hour
And I'll never desert you
I'll stand by you

And when...
When the night falls on you, baby
You're feeling all alone
You won't be on your own

I'll stand by you
I'll stand by you
Won't let nobody hurt you

I'll stand by you
Take me in, into your darkest hour
And I'll never desert you
I'll stand by you
I'll stand by you
Won't let nobody hurt you
I'll stand by you
and I'll never desert you
I'll stand by you
I'll stand by you
Won't let nobody hurt you
I'll stand by you

I'll stand by you

Our memories play like a never ending video in the back of my mind. I can;t stop it, nor do I really want to. So many things remind me of you. I dont want to hurt you... I dont want to hurt anymore.

At least I know I'm doing and have done the best I know how to do. I know that my greatest efforts have been played. Its your turn now... You know me...

SA

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