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I'm at a crossroads with myself.

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Just me with my thoughts, Not really with any sort of distinct or clear patterns, Just a jumbled mess of nonsense, Don't really know what I should say, or do. I guess I can start with a Thank-you, I'm glad that you're out, and not it. All i can think about now is the next trip I will go on. The new and endless possibilities, inspired by the open road and the breeze of warm air. So I'm just me, alone with my thoughts, They Don't make any sense, Just a jumbled mess of nothings. You might have had the last words, but I've had the last laugh. Are you serious? I am. I still have that smile on my face. The last smile I made when I put you out of my life. Aren't you glad that I have a sense of humor? You should be. I am here, Alone with my thoughts, The thought of you makes me happy oddly, I can't say why. Am I making any sense at all? Listen to this song, I'll kick you in the head. Oh it doesn't matter to me, I bet you wish it did? So it's just me,...

Serenity

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I'm at peace with the decision. Happy with the outcome. I know you, and you know me, We are both one of a kind, Full of strength, While imperfect, We still find comfort in each others arms, rather its just a thought, or just a glance. we know what could be, and to that we'll be at peace, that at one day we might find it all, in the arms of each other. you're the best thing, I know not why, but I can't lie, this is in my heart, and that I can't deny. to you I make this simple note. keep it dear, as I hold you dear. I'm always here, and will hear you, Will hold you as you need holding, and will kiss you as the fates align. I'm the person you need, and I'm not going anywhere. you're in my life, and I'm in yours. this is how I want it. as is what you tell me. we'll find each other. that's for certain. my dear, I'll never be to far away...

I Feel Good

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It's simple - live life the way you want it to be. We are who we are, that's for sure. But we can still move forward; how and to what you want it to be. As kids, we saw life, as a make believe film. We played cops and robbers, climbed to the tops of Houses, slid down roofs, hid from mom and dad. Played till we had to come in. We got older, and summers never lasted long enough. We were the kings of the world. No one could tell us other wise, we did what we wanted to, and without excuses. As we grew past adolescence, Our world expanded, the sights seen, made more of an imprint on who we are. We experience more of life, the tragedies and the joys. We become real, and deep; full of scars. But they can't touch me. I see the world as it is, one hell of a messed up place. The one thing I know I can control, is that person I know I am. "I'm a modern man"

I woke up...

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As the Turmoil swirls around in my head, The trials I am asked to face press upon me, encloses me and threatens to trap me inside of myself. And wants to tear me apart. The stresses of the day weigh more on the morrow. I wake up threatening to myself- I will not move, That I just don't care anymore. I often wonder what will happen if I just lay here? Scared to move, would anyone care? Then I thought of you, The mysterious woman of my heart, Even hurt as I am, Doesn't change the peace I could find with you by my side. Its the uniqueness of the moment, As is the spontaneous world you live in, Which is the realization in this reality that anything can fade. Even though it is as it is, I like to think back to the moment we met, And how I can find hope in that time. Regardless of what happens; at least, to this I know: that such magical moments are still liable to happen. I find hope that someday the clouds will dissipate, and again, someday, I will find the comfort of love. Even as...

Fa Fa

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Whistling through life, not ever knowing which is right, rather its the person you are today, or the person you imagine when you look into the mirror. You can't tell the difference of white to black, Nor can you see past shades of gray that your world consists of. You want more, but always settle for less. You plead for simplicity and love, but yell and fight at every passing moments. I don't know why you do this, but I can't stand it. Can't you just be nice, and be yourself? Today you're lovable, tomorrow you're fake and mellow dramatic. I wish someone could just say, that you need to stop, sit down, and see a therapist. Fa Fa is what I have to say to you. a simple meaningless phrase, as is the ground you generally walk on. Frustration meets a new height, as does the irritation I often feel when you whine and complain, yet again... Karma will come your way, the same karma you steal from those more deserving of it than you. I have friends that work for so much m...

Tell Me.

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Its quite simple really, like one two three. A boy loves a girl, The Girl Loves the boy. The look in their eyes, the hope in their hearts. If you have something, Don't pretend its not there. I Don't live in riddles, I think in twos, and threes. Those divisible by each other, makes sense in my head. I don't like cliff hangers, not when it comes to love. My head's up in the air, bring it down. There may be water under the bridge, But tell me as I have you. I like you, You like me, Lets do it. I'm not asking for much, Just the truth, don't get jealous of others, if you can't do something about it. If you could just tell me, "I'm yours, be mine" Okay, it's simple. "Yes, I'm yours." I'm done with the games, and the riddles, the hidden motives, I know you, You know me better than most. If you want it, awesome, cool. I want you too, I'll be yours forever. If not, I'll be okay with only the prospect of friendship between u...

You make me Smile.

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A smile is on my face, it's been a while since it's been this way. A new fire has been lit. I see things differently now, Somethings happen, I can't quite pick it out. Where have you been? Wait, you've always been in my life. Thanks for this new sensation, This new smile, you make the days go by faster, a sky without any clouds on a sunny day. New air, A New Start, A fresh look. I'm crazy about you, and it scares me more than I dare to say. But thanks for it all! To you I write this, To you I hope and pray this wont end!