Names on a wall

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The Walls built around
Are only as strong as the people living within
As the dusk settled, nestled safely within
Sleeping soundly
The Happiness from within
Falsified, by a false sense of security  
So incredibly and blissfully unaware of
The many wolves that had gathered about
As impervious as the people felt
As hard as they fought 
It all quickly, came crashing down. 

Yet.. It's taken me this long to

To truly be okay with 

To truly allow myself to 

To move on 

To look elsewhere

To smile differently

To find happiness elsewhere 

To feel enough to

To be real with this

To let go of my anger 

To feel enough to start writing again

To.. Let Go.. 

God i've missed you more than words
The way you would smirk before you laugh
The way you Smile
Your words
Our time together
Our worlds have always just meshed so well together
Our jokes and all the random things that come out of your mouth 
That sense of humor 
Both dark yet wholesome 
Weird blend, but we've done it so well
The memories
Your depth
Your Compassion
Your feistiness
The random names you call our fur son 
The way you would always come to me
But most of all
How I felt to be around you
I've never felt so complete
Even when it was hard.. 

Yet.. It's taken me this long To

To truly be okay with 

To truly allow myself to 

To move on 

To look elsewhere

To smile differently

To find happiness elsewhere 

To feel Just enough to

To be real with this

To let go of my anger 

To feel enough to start writing again

To.. Let Go.. 

Now we're just breath in the wind
Names on a broken down wall 
Memories in a picture book I created
The time spent
Actions made
Words said
Enough said 
It's time enough 
To move on
You'll need me again
To that I am certain
But this time I am certain 
I deserve more than you gave
Now I'm more aware than ever 
There's no going back for me
And you're stuck in a dead end of your choosing
I'm done with the tears 
Done with the feels
It's been too long 

And so,

It's taken me this Long To

To truly be okay with 

To truly allow myself to 

To move on 

To look elsewhere

To smile differently

To find happiness elsewhere 

To feel enough to let go 

To be real with this

To finally let go of my anger 

To feel enough to start writing again..

I've found the closure of my own creating
A story I've allowed myself to create 
To finally.. Let Go enough to 
To Rebuild in a world without you 
To move forward without you. 
I'm sad it happened this way 
But I'm strangely... okay with it. 


Goodbye girl in the white Audi 
I actually kinda miss the red car
I hate how predictably typical this became..  
We never did sing this song together, 
But now, the chase is up hun... 
4 years is enough of a song we both sang...
Even if it was at different times.. 






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