The Days

 These Days 

I’ve seen better days in some ways 

While also living the best days is the way I’m choosing to live them.

Changes came, life became. 

Two worlds colliding, as those changes came. 

The losing of a life-time career job

Funny,

I don’t particularly like that version of me. 

The Becoming aware of,

Evolving into a new version of myself.

Trying to find an artistic groove again,

It’s funny how I no longer feel the need to write about sadness or of lost loves.

The need to just write about life. 

I see “me” again.

For the first time in a very long time

I’m, me.

A reconnecting with my inner child

To the resolving and the batting down of those inner demons that held me hostage for so long. 

They’re still there.

But for once I remember a younger, more innocent Shaun that would never give up to inner pain.

Choices.

I can accept the past and live in the present, knowing the future is Bright.

For once.

Because I want it to be,

So it will be.

It’s been at least ten years since I fully trust myself enough to say that, and mean it. 

I’m in the better days,

These days.

and I’m excited for these best days.