Love is Stupid.

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Don't fall in love, it will bite you.
When you're in love, you're stupid, and you justify things.
You say things like "Oh it's ok, we're in love and it will be ok"
Or when you should have stopped, you carry on with hope, until the day comes when your on the bottom of a million foot deep trench, wandering what the hell you could have done to get in it, but you feel comfortable down there bc you're alone to your own misery.

It's torment, and it's stupid.
Why do people do it to themselves.
Well I hate it.
I hate that I hurt, and I hate that I want to keep hurting

It's like everywhere I look there are more people in love,
Not just in love but happy.
Is something wrong with me?
Why? Why? Why?
All I wanted was it...

I know what I had was true,
It's been tainted,
It's hard now,
It's not easy.

One thing after another.
Well I've done my best,
Gave it my all,
been true to what I knew was right...

I would do it all over again.

But now as I make those changes in my life,
I will have to move forward,
I'm smarter now,
Yet still yearn for her...

I'm on my own.
With God.
And this is how it will be.

--Shaun

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