The Depth of a Soul..

The days have past, the new days are now. Looking back to when I was 16, could I have imagined the man I am now? Turning pages never seemed so exciting, Or scary. I used to dream about the future, I've lived in the moment to the very last. Now I can say, it took many complex and diverse roads, to bring me here. As a kid I lived my life, close to the family God gave me. My best friend, was my brother. There wasn't a thing I did, that I didn't want him apart of, rather it was legos, or games, to him dragging me up trees, ending up on the roof. to the fist fights, that would end in laughter. We were young once, full of that everyday zeal, full of hope and excitement. Growing up, came in stages. With change coming slowly. What saved me, was the beliefs I held dear, my convictions, hopes, and testimony. It was that greater belief that held me true. The knowledge of God's plan, so grand it may be, yet it's so personal, it even inc...

Another day, Another dollar. You take the bag your wife prepared, The lunch you did nothing for. Yet, you're still loved.. AS if the 2 week pay check granted you, the free pass you deemed self righteous enough to take... You tip your coffee gal from Starbucks, that for some reason you like to flirt with.You've even daydreamed about her... Forget you're married? "Thanks for the coffee." The Routine. You wonder why, you wake up, not to excited for the new day. you keep pushin' for something new, a raise, or that opportunity that will change everything. Yet work is just a routine. Life is just a routine, You're wife... God bless her... When was it she you set your mind to..? even your kids can see, that you're oblivious of the families needs.. It's not about the 20 dollars you give them each weekend, or the keys to a car... No those things don't matter... It's the time you spend with them, teaching them, Loving t...

The lights up above, shines on you. like a radiant message of hope, Making brighter the life lived. Bright is your smile, Bright is your glow, as is the light that you radiate. But even the brightest of lights fade, as do the lights of day. The lights of day, turns into the darks of night. As leaves change colors, and green grass fades into shades of brown. so does the light of day. It changes and variates with the changes of the day. But you my dear, you're as the evergreens. Green year round, true, and steady. Even with the harshness of colds bight, The evergreens maintain their beauty. Steady... and true.. You've stayed true, you and I make sense. Life with you is all I see. You make life real. Steady and true, as the evergreens stay true, to the concourses of Gods plans take into flight. You my dear, Us, we are real. The one true and constant factor. I love you my dear, thank you for this life, and the constant and ever-companion, you are..

Denoting to this Present Epoch.. an unfolding life. the life of an infant born. the externalities to all those involved. the new life - a simplistic grandeur. how could something so little, (just like a passing thought) grow into something so grand? (watching it all from the beginning...) how this under matured life, was forced into maturity and forced to grow; impaled upon the consequences contrived by the actions of those most beloved by him.. it was those events of his life, that led him down the roads less traveled, and become whole. the life she lived - though marked by undeserved pain, elevated her to a paragonic-state. through the many tears shed, she still fought the fight, stood strong. a light she became - a paragon to those around her.. (her tears never went unnoticed by him that loves her most..) two walks of life transversed; they met, then became one. the life mentioned, in fact, started at the introduction of one another. to that very moment - a door opened, while other...

Paradise, that word, the thoughts entailed. you know the feeling - it's a place, it's... a dream, a venture, a romance, Beauty, Serenity... The place you go to escape, the place you love - it's the feeling you have,, and that feeling of freedom... Paradise - Paradise is at your door: Sweet glades of green, meadows with trees, Rolling mountains, The place away, away from it all... It's the place where your heart can heal, The place where you... where you leave it all behind you.. Paradise - Paradise is at your door: Golden Beaches, the Sun on your skin, The Ocean... Do you feel small as you peer into it's vastness? Finding you, the one of my life, the one I want to be with... and love. Completeness, how could it happen so fast? It's just right. Paradise - Paradise is at your door, Her cares, Her Love, and oh those Eyes, man that smile, and that laugh. How we accelerate one another. Finding that place together, in each others arm. I don't remember being happie...

Can you look yourself in the eyes? At the end of the night, Your mind is on the edge of quick thinking, and blurred rationalizations.. "Oh I'm in for it tomorrow..." The memories of experiences past - Night drives through the city, All night - to find yourself on someone's floor, Passing out, and far from home,, To think - your sober... Winding roads lead you to diverse locations, Finding yourself on the edge if reality, That the people around you, Are all that matters. Those you chose and they chose to stick by you. But At the end of the road, You finally realize that it was all... a waste.. With Eyes wide open you started, Knowing well what you were and are getting yourself into. You realize that you're not perfect, and Hoping you're okay with it. There's some thing's you need to change, But rest you need to live with... Life is one hell of a messed up place, Accepting the fact, Then just being happy through it all.  Many times you create a false sen...