Speechless.

So I don't get it.
Were you not there?
Did you not see it?
I know you did at one point.
What am I missing?
I know I didn't make it up.
Fireworks happened.
butterflies.
Excitement.
Lack for words.
A breath of fresh air.
We soared.
Potential was an under statement.
I was speechless.


I had to talk to myself,
just to prove to myself that it happened,
That it wasn't a dream,
Or something I made up.
When I met you,
I went into it,
wary, and not sure.
But that went out the window quickly,
I was speechless..

I saw it in your eyes,
but most especially with the way you kissed me.
But wait...
You even felt comfortable around me.
You even told me.
Oh it was real,
we were.
You let some of your walls down.
we enjoyed the moment.
We talked,
you talked,
we adventured.
I was speechless..

If you wanted to start over,
Have a do over,
I'd do it.

You said you weren't going to disappear...
I want to know what happened?
I'm speechless...

Not a match?
So you don't like a gentlemen?
A "good guy" that makes you smile?
The spiritual connection?
The amazing chemistry?
Our mutual attraction,
our personalities meshed...
Did I show to much respect?
Not enough?
To much kissing?
Nacho libre, I actually thought it was hilarious.
Your goofiness,
loud laugh,
with that forwardness,
Loved it all.
Need I mention we're both into performing arts?

So you didn't like the flowers?
or the thoughtfulness?
What.. is it because I like sweaters?
I mean seriously.
I like layers,
and blazers with ties,
I can't help it.
So you didn't want a guy to take care of you,
the way your dad would do?
Oh so it must be the fact,
that I work to hard.
Was a future to much to think about?
we took it at a great pace.
Yeah.... someone who makes things happen,
must have been a turn off.
not a MATCH!?
I call that... crap.
I'm speechless..

There isn't a better match made.
I've been married,
I know what a match looks like.

Someone or something,
must have poisoned your mind..
I know we took a couple of months off,
but that was a great time for me.
I resolved so much.
I'm just speechless here...
like, I'm dumb founded that you wont give this a shot.
What was it?

Well I guess you don't deserve this then,
with that attitude..
It's to bad really.
As it's just not fair.
I guess that playing most of the cards right,
doesn't count for anything.
Sorry for not fully being divorced when we went out.
That is my true regret here.
But God threw you in my life,
And I into yours,
You deserve so much...
And I know without a doubt,
that we were supposed to have met.

But hey,
you've apparently made up your mind,
soooo yeah...

I am ready for more,
Having my wife leave me,
brought me to a place where I realize,
that I deserve so much more.
And it better prepared me for and amazing future,
with a relationship,
novels could be written about.
I'm sick of mediocre,
and the mundane.

You're the best there is.
Not that you're perfect,
but that you're beautifully flawed.
To all of this,
I am grateful that at least...
I now have a standard to which I can look for.