Somthin’ More
The time came
1 moment that lead to a 1000 and 1
A skip of a heart beat
That look in your eyes
That smile behind the words
You could sit with anyone
Yet you’re sitting with me
You noticed the man I am
How other people responds to me
How even in a room with 1000’s of people
You're still the apple of my eye
What I can bring
"How I am"
What I am
Who I am
Confidence
Relaxed
Listening more
Talking less.
It shocked you
Yet didn’t surprise me
It became a night for firsts
An awakening of sorts for you
To something you thought was closed
You left to keep a sane mind
Yet wished you had stayed
You couldn’t get enough of me
We were drawn together
We almost sang this song together
Instead I walked you to your car...
And you couldn’t put a finger on it.
I did get a bit swept away in it.
You can’t blame me though,
As I had wanted that night to happen
for sometime.
What it was for me was knowing that,
You finally you saw me differently.
That now you know
We still have it.
And that I know
You can’t just overlook it anymore
Even if it's swept to the back of your mind.
It seemed easier for you to look passed that night
As you’re still there
Yet we had that night
That night is why we shouldn't overlook
The chance of what,
Could be.
Girl,
I get it’s still easier for you to look
At what’s in front of you
And the past of me,
still weighs in
And I know you still struggle with it.
Yet we still had that night
You can’t change it..
For a little over a week afterwards
I still had you
In sickness I lost My mind
That played into it
For I couldn't get out of my head
So along with bad timing
The overall outcome came..
For it didn’t take long for
You to match again
And repeat the process of..
Yet, oh yet
We still had that night
And though now
You seem to be on a path where
You can’t rationalize an us.
You still want me in your life
For you crave how I make you feel
You long for the intimacy found in my embrace
You need the peace found with me in your life
You need the friendship found
In the un-judgmental sounding board
You have in me
And the many more things
That have kept us
In each other’s life.
I know you’ve resorted to
Alternative sources of
What you can have in Me.
It seems like
You’re back to rationalizing the “why you can’t”
With me
Or maybe it’s just to avoiding the thoughts of
“Why we can.”
But yet, oh yet
We still had that night
That night of firsts
The night that meant something
In a way you’ve not seen me
In sometime.
And I’ll tell you now
It wasn’t easy to look passed
Well it’s still not easy to conceptualize why we’re down this road again
Even while in separate states..
But girl,
I’ve accepted what is
And though a part of me wants to
I don’t have any hard feelings
At the end of the day
It’s still you
That crazy girl who’s become my best friend
On every level
That girl I know better than
I’ve ever known anyone
And though I have to look passed that night
To accept the now.
I still catch myself daydreaming
What transpired that night
I can’t help but to smile knowingly
And to crave more of that night
So even with our dreams on the horizon
And the future clouded
I still want you ask yourself these questions:
What if the we made the timing better?
What if you had come back home?
Where would we be right now?
How many dates would we have been by now?
How many plans would have already been made?
Most importantly,
How much happier you could be now,
Had we built from that night?
Regardless of what may never happen,
As I say this for you
There's truth in the uncertainty of the present
I am still happy
That at least there are still these questions
Hanging in the cosmos
That no longer can you hide behind
As we're passed the certainty of nothing ever.
So Darlin’
I can’t love you more than you will let me
Though unconditional I feel
Yet for myself, I’ve got to keep it in check
While you remain in this state, or maybe that's how I can,
Stay in this place with you..
Regardless
We still had that night.
Damn, wasn’t it somethin.’
You Beautiful Crazy..
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