Imagine and close your eyes.

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Experiences in life,
Have their stories to tell.
To many people run,
Instead of face their fears.
Or the inevitable fate.

Picture a place where only you can go,
and go there...


It was hard,
Laying on your death bed,
Picturing a life without you're self in it.
Your life clock ticking away, as you lay in bed.
You're in to much pain to move.
Your skin crawls,
Like Knifes stabbing,
Your eyes throb,
Talking, gets stuck in your mouth.
Your throat closes,
Your lips are cracked.
You taste blood,
so much blood..

You want to cry but can't,
You think of an ending,
The ending you might be forced to take.

Nobody knows,
Just how it is.
But one person,
The person who's felt your pain,
That person- you hold onto to.
In your heart,
So you hold onto that faith..

While Finding a place outside of it all...
You close your eyes, and find -
A paradise, only you can go.

Yelling,
Those hurtful words..
STOP!!
You two loved each other once,
Can't you remember this??

Why?
What happened?
I thought perfection was there,
A home,
Complete and connected.
When did it change?
Why didn't we know!?

You blame yourself,
Yet know it's not your fault.
Not knowing what to do,
You just keep working.
The injustices of it all,
Makes your skin crawl.

Bitterness,
denial..
You can't help,
but to just cry..

Close your eyes,
And find that place,
A paradise away from the yelling,
And the screaming..

Just close your eyes,
A imagine that place..

The anger,
The hate.
Since when did this happen?
You're not this person.

Despair and grief so deep,
The depths of a black hole,
You keep falling,
Into a space, a dark space,
Full of daemons,
And sinister people.

Wanting,
Searching,
For anything,
Anyone to fill the void of pain.

You lay in bed,
Not wanting to move.
Tears are plenty..
The thought without her there,
Is this darkness..

So you close my eyes,
And dream of a place,
A paradise,
Without her.
And Happiness- in abundance..

Grey space,
Fog,
Mists shrouding color,
Not being able to see 5 feet in front,
Walking aimlessly.
The past is a blur,
the future, none existent.
All there is,
is the pain you feel.

Self gratifying,
Self indulgence.

You could die tomorrow,
Yet you just don't care.

Apathy.
You just don't care.

Where is the paradise?
It's who you are.
So you close your eyes,
And remember...

Paradise comes from within, the places you've gone which have made you who you are today. For now you can feel, and empathize with the lowly of lows. The darkest of nights, and the hurt of sin. You know now, that paradise won't come free. You must bleed, cry, and be close to a death, before you can earn the paradise. Close your eyes, and see it; Take with you what you know, and the places you've been. Become more; then Let your faith take the wheel, and believe again. Find the hope, from the pain, and smile.

Then - Dream of the paradise,
And get there.

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