Again to when?

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Again and again

everywhere everyday

the art of scraping through 

That caress of someone new 

The way

The art of it 

Something new?

Someone new? 


It's the game played

Exhausting the person played

Walking again 

with another stranger

Falling in love again

With someone new?  


Again and again

Again to when?

The distance from now to forever?

Start's with a decision for another day with that person 

A decision I thought we made? 

Why then

Are we right back to this.. again? 


Again and again

Again to when? 

So here we are 

Again?


The same pattern 

How to you break it?

Without breaking it? 


Every way I look

Either direction pointed 

Begins with a decision to say yes

Yes today, tomorrow, and more days after


Again and again

A round pattern of grey

With highlights of color


I'm ready for the color of everyday

With surety 

and comfort with each step forward

Carrying myself 

While moving together 


Holding you up has become a lifestyle when I thought it was a hobby

I can do it forever 

but is this helping the story move forward? 


Again and again

everywhere everyday

the art of scraping through 

That caress of someone new 

The way

The art of it 

Something new?

Someone new? 


It's the game played

Exhausting the person played

Walking again 

with another stranger

Falling in love again

With someone new? 


Again to when? 

Again to where? 

I wasn't meant for this game

I've played it for too long 

There's an Art to this 

A picture I used to know

Now too tired  to care.


Whichever way you look at it?

Again and again with someone new?

Or again and again the same story with you?

Ready to call it quits and find the final chapter to a new book. 

When someone new is a pregnant version of you 

Or the chapter where happily ever after

Is growing old with you.

and not another morning after.. 


*Closes the book*

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