The Depth of a Soul..

It's one thing to stay stuck and unmoving, Lost in unforgiving habits. Staying on the path of loneliness and despair. But the beauty of life comes from never stopping. Keep the engine on, Stay focused move forward, Don't look back except to remember the lessons learned. Keep the car running, don't stop to long, make a new life, be strong, grow up, love again, hope again. Remember that you're not alone. Keep the car running my friend. take your time, but keep it running. From one location to another, a new city to a new home. Make your life, and mark it with the greatest and with only the purest beauties. Keep the car running, and stay out of your head. What happens in front of you, is it, don't invent things. Love more and love a new. Keep the car running. Keep it true.

"take a bow cos you played your heart out and take your time with working the rest out" "going back my friend there's not much there left, Ill push you on, use your stride slow and pick it up over time.." "try & stay out of your head..." "I have seen you invent the damnedest things there." --Greg Laswell It's so nice to be at peace, happy with just you and yourself. A light, you know can only come from above. Thank you dear friend, you've been an angel. "oh so what maybe she could not really ever see you through her self what does that change about you or her, try and stay out of your head i have seen you invent the damnedest things there"

They're playing our song They're playing our song Can you see the lights? Can you hear the hum? Of our song I hope they get it right I hope we dance tonight Before we, get it wrong And the seasons Will change us new Be the best I've known and you know me I could not be stuck on you If it were true I was sleeping My eyes were dark Til you woke me And told me that opening is just the start it was Now I see you, til kingdom come You're the one I want To see me for all the stupid shit I've done (Chorus) Soil and six feet under Killed just like we were Before you knew you'd know me And you know me Blooming up from the ground 3 Rounds and a sound Like whispering you know me And you know me So this was our song This was our song I still see the lights I can see them And the criss cross Of what is true, won't get to us Cause you know me I could not give up on you And the fog of what is right Won't cover us cause you know me I could not give up a fight

Time has a way of telling, What words just can't say. Experiences leave their marks. Words may seem empty and tasteless at times... Sometimes you just can't erase pain. But after it all, Thank you. A best friend I found. And a best friend I hope is still there. Some days are harder than others, A week has seemed to be a month, Daily I regret the last words said. Days I think... Night's I know. I miss you, the friendship, the nothingness of aimless conversations. The times you confided in me, the times you corrected me; as you knew that I would always be there and vice versa. I can't help but tear up to this loss. But none-the-less, I am still grateful for the time spent. Even though it/we were caustic towards one another at times, this was far to short lived. space has helped things to come into retrospect. I am grateful for it all, the pain, the tears, the joys, the memories shared, The books, the T.V. shows, the music, our laughter, Diesel, (I mean c'mon. lol) but...

Go back home, find your way back home... only music can touch you in such way... Every step, a victory it was. I was cheating death. Just in time I woke. My memories start to wander off Come to me the remembrance of My way back home. --Band of Horses I find myself returning to the roots of who I am. For so long I have been bitter and angry. I feel like I am waking up from a long dark and dreary sleep. I have been dark for months now. I have been so selfish and dreary. I did this to myself... How could I? It's taken time and the remembrances of near death experiences to remind me that I am more. My head is returning, Light is catching up to me. Thank you, it's been to long... "There's often times that it comes out wrong But luckily I, I got a mind to know. On my way back home." --Band of Horses

"we come into people's lives when they have experienced something profound - and sad. And they've lost somebody, you know? And um, the circumstances, they're always different. But that's the same. And we help. In some small way we, um, we help." -Rose Lorkowski Interesting how just a little bit of hope, can go so far. Life opens up in front you, Your mind starts to empty out. You've stopped crying now at night. Some days are better than others, but there is a light at the end of the tunnel. You see the past, know how it hurt. Memories are that of recent pains, pains that didn't scar you, but helped you to grow. New friends arise, and you realize that you are working through it all. Memories will last a life time, even when you had thought it would have been more. I'm doing good. It's not easy, but I feel good...

"I had a lengthy discussion about The Power of Myth With a post-modern author who didn't exist In this fictitious world all reality twists I was a hopeless romantic now I'm just turning tricks Just like that Soul Singer in the session band Shredded confetti beneath a microphone stand Saw the Conflict of Interest slipping cash in the hand Of the Soul Singer in the session band" "Headlights or Taillights it's a flip of a coin I have been coming and going since the day I was born And I followed the breadcrumbs but I never got home I grew old in an instant now I am all on my own." I may have been criticized many times for what people see me as, I'm through with apologizing. I've made enough mistakes to last a life time, and I'm not perfect. I get it, I don't care what people think, I care about the image I see when looking into a mirror. Can I live with myself? that's the new question I ask myself, not if I am appealing the right people o...

I'm happy. I still know that deep down inside I have it in me. I may be partially broken, I may be lost at times, Words escape my mind, I may drown myself at time purposely, Many things may be wrong with me. But I still have that smile, I still have that hope. I may pretend many days. You can't control me. With my faults in mind, I will rise from the ashes. With my faults in mind, I will make a new life. Pick up those pieces of myself that are still around, Then be more. Help groups, Help Books, Therapists, Name it... This is me now. I'm forward thinking, With my faults in mind, You still cant control me. I may fall those thousand's of times, but I still know how to walk. With my faults in mind, I am more alive now than ever, for I know now that I am not perfect. I see it. With my faults in mind, I've learned how to feel. Learned that addictions have controlled me. with my faults in mind, I know: that at the end of the day... You still can't control me. Better D...

In a flash, light can be seen through the clouds. Dark clouds that once jaded and darkened you path, are now clear. Happiness comes from within, light shines from the heart through the eyes. The joy's of friendships, Loves, and lessons learned. Make a change in your life. Troubles and worries, although still present, are clearer now. You can see again. You, only you, know how to do this. Let life run it's course, Stay true to yourself, then take those lessons learned, and become more. Living in the moment, takes on a new meaning as you see the day to day, as it is. What are you doing now to be more for the tomorrow? Take your time, let things unfold. Smile more, don't let your scars taint the light, that light from within. You loved once, and love you will again. Don't place time limits, then let things pass you by. It's never to late to try, or to early to start. Remember, happiness come, but it only goes if you let it. Chose to be happy. Then Happy you will be. Lo...