The Depth of a Soul..

Have you ever? Just not known? Known up from down? Down from up? As if you’re lost in the haze of existence Trying to swim, Yet suddenly forgetting how to? I do, I have, and still do. Kinda.. all the time. Somehow I found myself here. Today…   In a new stage of life. A stage I never thought I’d have to relive Yet reliving in a unique way. Seeing how I once was, But enjoying this version of myself much more. Im such a different person now. And in a much better place.. Do you ever miss cues? I do and do all the time? Half the time I can’t tell the up from down And feeling like I’m walking on a different planet Yesterday I was dealing with CEO’s People of means Making much more.. Living a Very different life, Money didn’t bring happiness..   I did try to buy it though.. 😂 Funny how I’m somehow happier now, than I was back then. I enjoy the people around me Odd but I’m enjoying socializing again. Seeing this version of me, It’s been fun finding you again Shaun. Still a work in pr...

  A lost remembrance   A piece drawn away A thought that never happened   A voice kept silent   Time ticking in the back of my mind Cause I know what I’d find if I sit in place So I keep walking   Not sure what I’d find Or where I’ll find it. I don’t know the way I just go where I go. I’m at peace now With myself at least. I’m back to ground zero in some ways Yet liberated in a way I haven’t felt since days before I knew.. I never could forget your face It finds me in my sleep And I’d like to tell you about those dreams. If you hear my name And it doesn’t bring you pain Just know that I know I felt it too. And tomorrow,   Is worth the price. Missing the turn I should have taken   Having found somewhere better Because of it. Peaceful resistance to The moving towards   The Unwilling to compromise. A Mental fortitude. The secret of allowing myself to feel Yet standing strong in the face what is coming. Using the emotions to power a new resolve. I may...

In My Head  Sometimes you just don’t know As you thought you once did Why is this thing a thing? My head.. My head is spinning   I need you out of my head A thought.. A dream   A voice Your voice My thoughts are compressed, A blender spinning. What is even reality anymore? A straight road? A way out? A future? Or a new beginning? I talk too much Right now it’s all I can do. A Thought   A dream A voice..   Gone tomorrow   Or gone yesterday.. A voice, A dream A connection  Those thoughts.. I feel like I know you Oh how I want to know you And now I’m with you A smile that won’t go away I need this Somehow I just do. I need you out of my head I need to function  But I can’t stop Just something I have to do. 

To my Final Valentine, I don't know why and I'm still trying to figure the how.. That somehow, in someway, God blessed my life with you.  I didn't feel like I deserved the love you had  Yet somehow.. you taught me how to accept that I do.  From the moment we talked I knew that you would be special  That in someway We would connect deeper than I ever have before you That somehow, I went from being broken.. to whole.  That in someway, I learned how to love again.  From a Valentine hater,  To this day,  I can't see without you as my Valentine.  In you, I see the rest of my life  2 children, a boy and a girl  The first with brown hair,  The second, with a head full of red.. I love you baby.  Somehow, simply So Yet in Someway, Stronger than I've ever experienced.. I love you.  Without the right words to describe Yet Somehow I just know.  From the second week of telling you.. To asking you to move in with me.  and...