The Depth of a Soul..

You spend your whole life trying. Your whole life working towards something, An idea, A dream, A hope. All for you to come to this point. A point you feel like you shouldn't be at, Yet you are. You've met people, You have family, love ones. People know you from across the world, from the restaurant next door, to the people you've gotten close to. People love you, people know you, yet... for all of it.. You feel... Empty. Emptiness. A series of not so great decisions, lead you down a hole you have to now climb out of. When the music stops, when the noise settles. After the show is finished, and people fall asleep, empty... You're alone now. By choice, by design. Yet it doesn't make it feel any better. You'd rather be alone, than where you were not that long ago, yet.. Emptiness falls hard. So now I must man up, Get back to the life I want to build, Prepare for the life I need to have, The life I want. I prepare for he...

You know that famous lane, When one door closes another opens? To that end I've come, and to that end I've learn to just say, fuck it. I've been through so many changes, all so suddenly, I feel like I can barely figure out which direction to go, before another change comes a knocking. Though it is what it is, and maybe it's my own doing, I'm tired.. and want a home. Though I may see it, It's not that easy. Though I may live it, I'm also trapped by it. Trapped in in the walls of change, Trapped in the imaginary prism of my mind. Consistency is my sanity. Though I enjoy a change in pace, I do love my loves. And enjoy those enjoys. I have everything I need, I feel all one would want to feel, Yet, more is always on the way, I guess I can't have everything now. I still need more. More is not always the answer, Yet at least the change is for the better. Looking at my daughter, I feel the change that's come, and the cha...